'tis the season.

The festive season is most definitely upon us and true to my usual style, I am horribly unorganised. I have presents to wrap, cards to write and people to see. I've been at home nearly a week and barely done anything. I've not even found something to analyse for my assignment. Ah well, that can be done next week.

I've been in a terrible mood these past couple of days. I just need to scream or do something that I want to do for a change. I want to spend some time with my boyfriend. Just me and him, is that so selfish of me? I wouldn't mind, but he keeps telling me he's free and then making plans with other people. But, because he's told me that he's free I've not made any plans because he wants me to help him get organised for Christmas too. I just feel a bit like he doesn't realise this. Well, he probably doesn't because I haven't told him. No, I choose to broadcast stuff like that on the internet. Rather than actually telling him to his face.

I should also really be asleep, as I'm knackered, but I'm that tired that I can't be bothered to actually get ready for bed. Ah, I just need Christmas day to come quickly, so mum and dad can go away and I can live at John's and do my work and just relax. It'll be nice.

I was really looking forward to Christmas, but as it draws closer and closer, I realise why I'm usually so "bah humbug" in my disposition when it comes to the festive period. I'll try my best to be jolly....

falalalalalalalaaa.

This world is fucking terrible.

Things happen to people that shouldn't. God, you've got some serious making up to do.

Essay battles.

Yes, I'm battling along with an essay again. I don't feel so stupid with this one though.

Oh yeah, I got 72% (a first) with the essay I was crying over. Happy times.

My current essay is due in in 4 days and I've only got 1313 words left to write, I'm quite proud of myself, I wrote about 900 words in about 4 hours yesterday. Doesn't seem a lot but when you're searching through books at the same time, it's not bad going. I don't know if I'll do as well on this essay, but I hope I at least get a 2:1. I'd be happy with that.

In other news, only 6 days until I'm home for Christmas! I can't wait. Chesnuts roasting on an open fire... well, not quite. Probably more like having a hot chocolate cuddled up on the sofa, but I think I prefer it my way. I just want to see my family and have a ridiculously massive turkey dinner. NOM. Food is by far the best bit about Christmas (and I wonder why I'm overweight). I don't even care, I love food.

I actually don't have much to write about, I'm just putting off my essay which I really shouldn't. I need to get it done, I want to try and write another 1000 words today then I'll have it done for tomorrow - hopefully. I wish I could just avoid everything. I turn facebook off and then get distracted by twitter or tumblr or this! Gah.

Best be off.

PS, our house is like an igloo.

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas.

It's only 19 days until Christmas, what is that about?

I have a week to write my essay and 10 days until I finish university for three whole weeks.

Three weeks without the stress of this house! Then, I get to spend Christmas day with my family before going to my boyfriend's house to spend the night with him. He's the reason I look forward to Christmas, he really is. I get to see all my friends from home and I can't wait, I've missed them all so much. My mum and dad are going away for new year, so I'm going to live at John's for a few days which is going to be so good. I'll do my essay while he's at work, then I'm going to be a proper little housewife and cook for him and keep the house tidy; mainly, so I have something to do when my essay is making me want to throw my laptop at the wall.

I only have a few more presents to buy, which I'm going to get when I go back to Sheffield. It seems pointless buying them here to lump all the way home.

What else? Oh, I spent last night in Manchester with my mum. It was lovely, we spent the day shopping and then we got a little tipsy together and had a McDonald's for tea. Like having a night out with my mum, brilliant.

The only thing that will be missing this Christmas will be my brother and Maria, they're coming home in January for my dad's birthday so they can't come home for Christmas. They didn't last year, but I still miss my big brother.

Until next time, take care.