I realise I've not written a blog for a while, but I've been on holiday and then generally busy. That and I wasn't really in the mood for taking photos for OOTDs or writing. Which is strange, because I love writing.
I'l start doing OOTDs again soon, but right now I'm not in a nice place with myself. I'm full of self-loathing right now. It's a mixture of extended period blues and the fact that I've put some weight on. It's making me burst into tears every time I look in the mirror. I don't know what's wrong. I mean I've never loved myself, but I thought I'd finally gotten to a stage where I didn't abhor everything I looked at. I've never felt fatter. Nothing I like seems to fit me and I just hate all my clothes. I just want to wear massively baggy tshirts to hide my body from the world. I can't be bothered with my hair and my make up half the time. That's when you know something is wrong, when I can't be bothered with my hair. Hence, I've not taken too many pictures of my new clothes, or just of myself, for the fleeting fashion aspect of this blog.
To top it all off, John has gone to Malia and I don't have him here to hug me. Nor, does he know what I'm feeling like because I didn't want to tell him all this before he went on holiday.
I really need to motivate myself and get back on track with my weight loss, confidence-building and liking who I am. I was really happy when it was going well and since we got back from holiday (which I shall blog about at a later date) I've been miserable. I can't even get a job to distract myself!
I'm off to watch some more Sabrina, the Teenage Witch,
